Sitting in Sunday School for the first time in a long time - the church we had been attending had just life groups and we live an hour away - makes it tough to be involved - anyway, sitting in SS we were discussing the crucifixtion of Christ. It was such a beautiful morning and such great participation from the group.
As the teacher was going along reading the scripture and commenting here and there as was everyone else, the phrase "My God, my God why has thou forsaken me" jumped out. I thought about Jesus Christ hanging on the cross knowing full well what was before Him, being fully God and fully human, and yet asking the Lord Almighty why He had forsaken Him.
To be honest it brought a real joy to my heart. I have no where been through anything like what Jesus endured for us and yet there have been times in my life when I have felt like the Lord has left me all alone. It felt like He has abandoned me or at the very least had left me to fend for myself.
I know, I know, I know - I know in my mind that God has never left me. I know!! But in the midst of troubles and pain my emotions and prayerless days lead me straight to be distraught and in despair. I feel left and alone like Christ did on the cross! It encouraged me to know Jesus felt the same way and He even knew the future! I have to know He felt things I do - I have to know about the humaness in the divinty! I have to know I can be honest about my feelings, voice them, and still be safe with my God.
I get the same kind of peaceful reassurance even before Christ goes to the cross. When He is praying in the garden and begs the Lord to take this cup from Him. He was just being really honest and begging the Lord to not make Him do this. I gotta know that even though complete obedience resulted, there was a bit of push back from our Jesus.
It's all about honest and authenticity!! God is real. Jesus is real. All He went through had purpose and works beautifully in my life if I will apply.
Jesus, thank you for being real. Thank you for hurting and expressing that. Thank you for being honest and allowing your words of uncertainty seep through all your experiences. God, thank you for not crushing me when I express my true feelings. Thank you for holding me closely and allowing me to patiently work out my salvation - trust in You!! God, you are worthy!! I love you!